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so here it is!! all about the perfect moi...
nurul here...by now you could probably see tat i'm an idiotic gurl who thinks she's PERFECT.
k... i'm actually 14 yrs old... sec2 in whitley... in npcc... wad else 2 write huh? i'm actually very much of an idiot... not so good in studies but like to think she's smart... was from ftpps... sits at the back of the class n never pay attention...
*loves*
hiM
my cLaSs 2e4'05
mY faMiLY
my nPcC uNiT
mY hAmSteR
jUnK foOd!!
*hates*
mY bRo
BuGs
LiArS
HypOcRitEs
nurul here...by now you could probably see tat i'm an idiotic gurl who thinks she's PERFECT.
k... i'm actually 14 yrs old... sec2 in whitley... in npcc... wad else 2 write huh? i'm actually very much of an idiot... not so good in studies but like to think she's smart... was from ftpps... sits at the back of the class n never pay attention...
*loves*
hiM
my cLaSs 2e4'05
mY faMiLY
my nPcC uNiT
mY hAmSteR
jUnK foOd!!
*hates*
mY bRo
BuGs
LiArS
HypOcRitEs
sometimes it seems to me
as though i'm the only one
in this world
no footsteps on the beach
but mine
there is no one around
the world is empty
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
why...
jeez. i juz dun get it. y the hell does my blog alwaes doesn't show my latest entries? call mi impatient, i dun mind, coz tat will mean i haf the same trait as moi darling CHARLIE SIMPSON!! i tell u, tat guy is hot hot HOT! i'm going crazee juz thinking of him... *dreamy smile on face*
ok, back to business. tmr's science *aarrrrghhhhh!* n OMG it's the second last paper!! ~lala~ happy happy daes r here again!! *whee* i'm so happy i cant wait. n whitley u better wait coz deepak already said that 2e4's gonna jumping off the roof after exams!! i didn't sae i wanna do it, but i'll do anything 4 moi klass.imagine.*39 BODIES OF STUDENTS LITTERING THE AREA NEAR 1E4* god i am so morbid 2dae but i dunno y n i cant help it. help me if u must.
u were kinda out of sight 2dae. dunno y though. avoiding me? haha.tat girl is so so SO obsessed wif boulevard of broken dreams coz her 'sour'heart broke her heart. n i'm so not gonna call him sweetheart coz obviously he's not sweet. hmmph.*hate hate hate* but i'm not gonna waste moi precious time on him. idiot. better watch out or you'll never know what hit you.
exam. in the hall. can u blive it? but of course i can concentrate better. but OMG ian made me panic wen i saw he was done wif his paper. i was on ly on section C. *lamer* n sum1 said tat u'r gonna fail. i dun think so. u seem smart to me. *chee* am i sucking up or wat? i'm stuck on my com, adin on hers... but at least i'm doing sth worthwhile. she's playing COMPUTER GAMES. not tat i'm not addicted too, but not as bad as her. wanna go. play dead.
u noe u love me
muakzz
posted @ 12:21 PM
Monday, October 10, 2005
maths?!
seriously... i studied like maths n kept bothering moi sis 2 teach me n da paper is like, not so hard after all!!*whee* not tat i'm confirmed i could pass of course... huda i haf 2 change windows btwin frenster n blogger all bcos of YOU. i'm such a sweet fren!!*hyuk hyuk* class was veri noisy juz now.... n sum1 spoiled my mood 4 a moment wen she reminded me i still haf 2 buy ferrero rochers 4 e klass!! wat. u think i'm made of money is it?!*frown frown FROWN* oh my gawd my brain is suffering frm veri severe damage!! b4 dee end of exams u r gonna c moi brains turn to MUSH!! it will ooze out frm my head all de wae 2 dee end of yours truly's tippy toes! *MUAHAHAHA!* c? i knew it... not dee end yet n i'm already turning insane... by the wae... i dunno wat to sae except 4 thx... u noe who u r... n i'm really flattered so... i'll let u noe, k?
now lets get back to BUSINESS. history paper tomorrow n *OH MY GOD* i'm still not ready! how?! how?!HOW?!i'm being swept of my feet but i need to get back to the ground.NOW. send me back home pls pls pls. on second thought no thanks bcoz i'm trying 2 escape frm e eagle eyes of my EVIL mother... evil evil evil! i'm so not lookin 4wards 2 going shoppin 4 hari raya dis year... bcoz it's still skool time n of course i do NOT want to go through de heavy crowd again although i've survived it all my life.de last time i went there wif moi xtended family we were there for almost NINE HOURS! n my feet were totally killing me!! if u have mercy mummy dearest then u'll let me ESCAPE FRM GOING THERE!!*SHUCKS*i've got to get back to work. exam tomorrow but once it all ends, u can xpect 2 c mi again,k? tats provided i'm NOT feeling LAZY. but it's usually U, HUDA who can actually MAKE ME BLOG. so i guess i'll go now!!
muakzz
posted @ 12:23 PM
Friday, October 07, 2005
oh mi gosh
lit exam was like so darned tiring... y u ask. coz it juz about destroyed all my nerves in my hands!! *sigh* this sux. did da 2nd q... holy shit monday muz bring carnival tickets or i die liao... oh... anywae mrs singh said something so freaking shocking on wednesdae... something abt HER... i haf a feeling tat they r rivals ya noe... dunno y... but i prefer mrs singh... she's nicer =) *whew* didn't get 2 c him 2dae... can't wait 4 moi sis 2 get back l8er... she went shopping for UNDIES. hahax. sick guys reading this relax. i'm juz joking... *wheee* mondae got maths. holy cow i am so so so going to DIE DIE DIE. huda if u r reading this i am so happy... abt sumthing u dun noe. YET.*wheee* tell u later... oh n moi darlings frm 2e4'05 good luck 4 ur exams!! i noe how bad u guys r gonna get after all this is over... hahax.
i am currently feeling soooo in love... dun aks me y... it's secret... huda u'll soon knoe... *heehee* i dun ever wanna go home man... dun wanna do house chores... feeling very lazyyy... so wat haf i gotta do? nothing lah... i guess i'll go now...
life goes on even if you think you can't make it...
someone will guide you through...
muakzz
happy burfdae to moi darling sis!!
posted @ 11:06 AM
Monday, October 03, 2005
exams!!
oh my GOSH! exams!! die liao!! shitshitshitihaven'tstudyyet!!! ok... i'm kinda calm now... ARGGHHH! anywae... huda if u r reading this... i'm so sorry i didn't go 4 da gathering at ftpps... =( i was 2 busy doing my dnt n after tat i was actually on da way there budden it started raining so i had 2 go back... so sad... i kept thinking abt wat u guys were doing... basically i depressed myself thinking abt you guys... boohoo... i am SO in da mood 4 love songs these few daes... but i dunno y... haha... mayb adin n nethra knows... huda u r yet 2 noe? anywae did u gys read lime yet? it's so funny man!! i love this article but now i 4get wat it's abt alreadi lah... i have short term memory... =( ya noe wat i'm gonna do after exams? i'm gonna BURN MY BOOKS!!!!! haha!! okay... now i seriously noe i haf no life...
this is for you... i'm so sorry about friday... i was preoccupied at the time... maybe i'll be able to go the next time...
you are very much on my mind... and you made me forget about him... somehow to me that's weird... more than a year...
okay... enuf of this stuffs... hahax!! i am like, so darned happy english is over!! but next will b malay... can't afford 2 slack coz i wanna go 3e2 next year!! buh bye!!
juz looking at you makes my heart melt...
muakzz
posted @ 1:23 PM
Friday, September 16, 2005
atc
okay... so the atc was fun... i met all kinds of ppl... gr8 frens in fact... i've grown kind of attached 2 the ppl there... like khai... frm bps... he's kind of gayish but he's very farni... think i'll go now...
muakzz
posted @ 1:35 PM
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
hey hey hey...
so wats up? hmm... so borring... but i went back 2 ftpps juz now... saw has, sarah (she looks like a butch!!), huda azzis (moi best fren), huda arslan, suria, hutomo (4eva fat!!), jue ying, msy, bml, jonathan, corrine, si rong, wan zhen etc etc... wow!! n i was like, so darned happy tat i finally caught up wif them... it's bin a whole year!! anywae.... i went out 2 eat wif them... n tawan was there 2... still as popular (among the gals) as ever... haha!! then 4 a moment the guys played cards... xcuse moi? tat's so childish!! then wen they were playing soccer, i played hopscotch wif da gals... talk abt pri skool kids...wat else? miss selva didn't come 2dae n i'm feeling so guilty abt wat our guys did 2 her... wat 2 do?! oh yeah... tat 1 guy in our class is so darned unfashionable!! he wore his pe shirt wif jeans n BLACK LEATHER SHOES!! does he think he's a businessman or sth? i mean, wat da heck? haiss... klah... the main reason y i blogged was bcos huda azzis asked moi 2... so, happy? anywae.. wanna go now... buh baii!!
muakzz!
posted @ 4:39 PM
Friday, August 19, 2005
cpl...
hey rite now i'm in the cpl...doing nothin' n talking crap... buh bye!!
muakzz!
posted @ 9:45 AM
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
i lost someone
i just lost someone i loved... why must life be so unfair? why must god take him away from me? i don't understand... perhaps life is like that... and what hurt me more was the fact that he kept asking for that one thing which no one was allowed to give to him... it hurts looking at him suffer so much... i was never really close to him but now when we go to his house it struck me just how empty the house seems to be... i miss talking to him... some times even now, months after he has passed away i still cry when i think about him... how i wished i had put in the effort to get closer to him... but it's too late now... everything has ended... for him... but not for me... for me, life has to go on... but i can't take it...
posted @ 1:46 PM
Thursday, June 09, 2005
after sleeping...
omg. i slept all the way from 11.30 pm till 3 pm juz now! nearly 16 hours! actually we had npcc but i was juz so darned tired i couldn't wake up! i mean, i was seriously exhausted. i mean, imagine spending 3 daes<8> in skool... very stressful. we finished our claymation thingie quite early lah, so me, zm, adin, mg n nethra surfed the net but then the instructor<> chased us out. said at 3 muz go liao. she's so bloody biased! bcoz terry, desmond, keng rong n the other e3 guys also nvr do anything, then they surfed the net, played soccer inside the lab, n make noise she nvr ask them 2 leave the lab lor... but on tuesday keng rong was playing boulevard of broken dreams damn loudly then at tat time she was telling us wat to do lah. then she got kinda angry n she said this then keng rong said then he, terry n desmond all went out. but the lame thing was tat they came back even b4 a minute was up!but their actions were very cute 1 lah. then yesterdae i placed my bag on a chair n keng rong sat on it... then i was like glaring at him. the ah kiat saw, n he said sorri. then i juz lamely grinned back at him. at the same time adin was checking mcfly's site n she was calling me to look at the pics, then keng rong got excited n started looking at the screen. like a little kid. oh, n i 4got 2 mention the early part of the morning, b4 keng rong came. it was so darn silent. as soon as he came into the lab, chaos broke out.i seriously felt like killing them, one by one, very slowly.they were so frustrating! then after lunch he came back n threw a nut at j.ho, but sumhow it landed on adin's skirt. haha! then ard 9 adin was calling nethra so i asked kai yang to play greenday softer, then i tapped his shoulder. then i said sarcastically n he looked at me like i very siao one... then i was like, did i juz talk to you? then he started laughing n ended up getting scolded. then i laughed back at him. omg, i seriously hate allison! she's such a complete bitch! klah, dun wanna waste my ink on her. muakzz!
talked to him!
posted @ 4:03 PM
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
claymation...
hey!! rite now in cpl 3 doing the claymation thingy... wif e3... ( zm, 2 bad ly nvr come hor...) the e3 guys v. bad 1 ... they r so rude!! budden wad do u xpect frm them?! klah, actually they quite funny lah... but they r such hypocrites coz during normal class time they damn quiet 1... then now so darned noisy!! our class r the total opposites!! so noisy in class (main gate down there can here deepak's voice) but v.quiet during this thing lor... but i won't exactly call us hypocrites lah=) coz i luv luv my class 1 lor... the e3 guys have v. v. good taste in music lor... they keep playing i juz wanna live, untitled (edwin playing rite now), hollaback girl, n greenday songs 1 lor... seems like i keep using singlish... hahaha!!*zm, r u crazy? y u visiting the singapore indians website?!* wahlau, the''idiot'' cut his hair 1 lor... yesterdae he was like blowing his hair off his forehead the whole time lor!! look very funny... juz now saw jw's blog... so cute!!
yesterdae the e3 guys keep playing their music so loud lor then the instructor say she would throw them out if they keep playing v.loud lah... then 1 of the guys say '' u throw me out hah, i go out first lor!!'' then after tat they went out but even b4 1 minute's over they came back in... very lame 1 lor!!
then rite, i lent 1 e3 grp my account to access the computer so many times alreadi then they nvr say thx even 1 lor!! very rude leh!!
am not talking to you...
posted @ 10:23 AM
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
bloggin'
hey hey hey! rite now i'm in skool=) we're actuali supposed to do this thin' on asknlearn... but nvr mind cos i posted 3 things on 3 topics... jarrod's krazee... he viewed his own post n rite now it's 314 n counting... i dun reali give a damn abt wat i rote... as long as i did sth... i'm in btwin nethra n zimin... juz now during maths the guys requested 2 play p.e. so we all went down n i nvr did anything... v. lazee... juz checked my account... amanda's singing... quite nice lah... nethra so busy lookin' at porn sites... klah, go now...
i'm so on the high!!
posted @ 12:04 PM
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
sob...
yesterdae was 1 of the worst daes of my life... yeah i noe it sounds like a cliche, but it does have sum truth in it... my hamster died... n wen it was dying i wasn't home cos i was forced 2 go 2 my grandpa's house... i hate this... n my sis was the onli 1 home at tat time... n she had a phobia of our hammy cos she got bitten lots of times b4... the thing was lifeless ya noe... couldn't breathe properly... n my sis said tat there were lots n lots of ants on him... i wonder how much my hammy was suffering... my hammy was like struggling 2 breathe ya noe... i couldn't stand 2 see him suffer... i ended up crying like 4 2 whole hours... lucky wen i got home he was still alive... i couldn't sleep yesterdae n like 3 am i woke up cos i was crying in my sleep n i saw my other sis crying too... i noe i had a hamster b4 but wen it died i wasn't tat sad sumhow... i was like onli 5 or 6... but if losing a hamster feels like this, juz how bad will it be if i lost a family member? it's gonna hurt, i noe tat much... i can't stand walking into my room n seeing an empty cage cos it reali struck me tat he's dead... i reali can't stand it... this sucks...
i never wanna lose you...
posted @ 11:56 AM
Thursday, April 28, 2005
i hate you...
juz now we had english... my fav subject!! but now i seriously think tat i can't score well 4 this... the compre was average, but the summary was totally hellish!! arghhhh!! yesterdae was a very bad dae at home... i got yelled at lots of times 4 not helping out wif the chores...
i hate my mum... i hate the way she always talk abt the pain she has 2 go thru 2 give birth 2 me... she knows it'll make me guilty... but the caesarean wasn't my fault... y don't u juz 4get abt tat? u dunno tat everytime u say tat, i felt as though u regretted having me... its tat true? cos it reali seems like u dun give a damn abt me... the onli way i could make u happy is 2 get gd results... i now u want me 2 get 2 uni... if i ever manage 2 get tat far, i'll make sure tat i go 2 1 which is very far away... so tat i'll nvr c u... i hate you...
if only there was someone who could make me happy and forget about all this...
posted @ 1:53 PM
Monday, April 25, 2005
I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!
i hate the biased stupid bitch or wadever her bloody name is. arghhhhhh!!ya wanna noe wat happened? at the lab me, zm n nethra were noisy as usual... then nethra kept begging sy 2 give her sweet... then after tat i asked nethra 2 shut up... i admit i was giggling but tat was bcos nethra was so funny... then she started saying tat me n zm talk a lot, so i shut up 4 the rest lesson... then wen j.lim n sy were doing the exp. i juz sat there alone like a loser cos i was so angry... then she came 2 us then asked me 2 come over 2 them. i wasn't tat rebellious so i juz went... then she started saying tat we r all very shy.... very stupid lor!! ppl nvr talk bcos of her... BITCH! i hate you 4 doing this 2 me...
you make me hate you even more for doing this...
posted @ 2:50 PM
Friday, April 22, 2005
hey...
very borring 2dae... juz now skool was a-ok... selva wasn't so bad these few days... juz wanna rite this 4 the hell of it... ya noe i'm crazy=)bye!!
muakzz!!
posted @ 8:03 PM
why...
jeez. i juz dun get it. y the hell does my blog alwaes doesn't show my latest entries? call mi impatient, i dun mind, coz tat will mean i haf the same trait as moi darling CHARLIE SIMPSON!! i tell u, tat guy is hot hot HOT! i'm going crazee juz thinking of him... *dreamy smile on face*ok, back to business. tmr's science *aarrrrghhhhh!* n OMG it's the second last paper!! ~lala~ happy happy daes r here again!! *whee* i'm so happy i cant wait. n whitley u better wait coz deepak already said that 2e4's gonna jumping off the roof after exams!! i didn't sae i wanna do it, but i'll do anything 4 moi klass.imagine.*39 BODIES OF STUDENTS LITTERING THE AREA NEAR 1E4* god i am so morbid 2dae but i dunno y n i cant help it. help me if u must.
u were kinda out of sight 2dae. dunno y though. avoiding me? haha.tat girl is so so SO obsessed wif boulevard of broken dreams coz her 'sour'heart broke her heart. n i'm so not gonna call him sweetheart coz obviously he's not sweet. hmmph.*hate hate hate* but i'm not gonna waste moi precious time on him. idiot. better watch out or you'll never know what hit you.
exam. in the hall. can u blive it? but of course i can concentrate better. but OMG ian made me panic wen i saw he was done wif his paper. i was on ly on section C. *lamer* n sum1 said tat u'r gonna fail. i dun think so. u seem smart to me. *chee* am i sucking up or wat? i'm stuck on my com, adin on hers... but at least i'm doing sth worthwhile. she's playing COMPUTER GAMES. not tat i'm not addicted too, but not as bad as her. wanna go. play dead.
u noe u love me
muakzz
posted @ 12:21 PM
Monday, October 10, 2005
maths?!
seriously... i studied like maths n kept bothering moi sis 2 teach me n da paper is like, not so hard after all!!*whee* not tat i'm confirmed i could pass of course... huda i haf 2 change windows btwin frenster n blogger all bcos of YOU. i'm such a sweet fren!!*hyuk hyuk* class was veri noisy juz now.... n sum1 spoiled my mood 4 a moment wen she reminded me i still haf 2 buy ferrero rochers 4 e klass!! wat. u think i'm made of money is it?!*frown frown FROWN* oh my gawd my brain is suffering frm veri severe damage!! b4 dee end of exams u r gonna c moi brains turn to MUSH!! it will ooze out frm my head all de wae 2 dee end of yours truly's tippy toes! *MUAHAHAHA!* c? i knew it... not dee end yet n i'm already turning insane... by the wae... i dunno wat to sae except 4 thx... u noe who u r... n i'm really flattered so... i'll let u noe, k? now lets get back to BUSINESS. history paper tomorrow n *OH MY GOD* i'm still not ready! how?! how?!HOW?!i'm being swept of my feet but i need to get back to the ground.NOW. send me back home pls pls pls. on second thought no thanks bcoz i'm trying 2 escape frm e eagle eyes of my EVIL mother... evil evil evil! i'm so not lookin 4wards 2 going shoppin 4 hari raya dis year... bcoz it's still skool time n of course i do NOT want to go through de heavy crowd again although i've survived it all my life.de last time i went there wif moi xtended family we were there for almost NINE HOURS! n my feet were totally killing me!! if u have mercy mummy dearest then u'll let me ESCAPE FRM GOING THERE!!*SHUCKS*i've got to get back to work. exam tomorrow but once it all ends, u can xpect 2 c mi again,k? tats provided i'm NOT feeling LAZY. but it's usually U, HUDA who can actually MAKE ME BLOG. so i guess i'll go now!!
muakzz
posted @ 12:23 PM
Friday, October 07, 2005
oh mi gosh
lit exam was like so darned tiring... y u ask. coz it juz about destroyed all my nerves in my hands!! *sigh* this sux. did da 2nd q... holy shit monday muz bring carnival tickets or i die liao... oh... anywae mrs singh said something so freaking shocking on wednesdae... something abt HER... i haf a feeling tat they r rivals ya noe... dunno y... but i prefer mrs singh... she's nicer =) *whew* didn't get 2 c him 2dae... can't wait 4 moi sis 2 get back l8er... she went shopping for UNDIES. hahax. sick guys reading this relax. i'm juz joking... *wheee* mondae got maths. holy cow i am so so so going to DIE DIE DIE. huda if u r reading this i am so happy... abt sumthing u dun noe. YET.*wheee* tell u later... oh n moi darlings frm 2e4'05 good luck 4 ur exams!! i noe how bad u guys r gonna get after all this is over... hahax. i am currently feeling soooo in love... dun aks me y... it's secret... huda u'll soon knoe... *heehee* i dun ever wanna go home man... dun wanna do house chores... feeling very lazyyy... so wat haf i gotta do? nothing lah... i guess i'll go now...
life goes on even if you think you can't make it...
someone will guide you through...
muakzz
happy burfdae to moi darling sis!!
posted @ 11:06 AM
Monday, October 03, 2005
exams!!
oh my GOSH! exams!! die liao!! shitshitshitihaven'tstudyyet!!! ok... i'm kinda calm now... ARGGHHH! anywae... huda if u r reading this... i'm so sorry i didn't go 4 da gathering at ftpps... =( i was 2 busy doing my dnt n after tat i was actually on da way there budden it started raining so i had 2 go back... so sad... i kept thinking abt wat u guys were doing... basically i depressed myself thinking abt you guys... boohoo... i am SO in da mood 4 love songs these few daes... but i dunno y... haha... mayb adin n nethra knows... huda u r yet 2 noe? anywae did u gys read lime yet? it's so funny man!! i love this article but now i 4get wat it's abt alreadi lah... i have short term memory... =( ya noe wat i'm gonna do after exams? i'm gonna BURN MY BOOKS!!!!! haha!! okay... now i seriously noe i haf no life...this is for you... i'm so sorry about friday... i was preoccupied at the time... maybe i'll be able to go the next time...
you are very much on my mind... and you made me forget about him... somehow to me that's weird... more than a year...
okay... enuf of this stuffs... hahax!! i am like, so darned happy english is over!! but next will b malay... can't afford 2 slack coz i wanna go 3e2 next year!! buh bye!!
juz looking at you makes my heart melt...
muakzz
posted @ 1:23 PM
Friday, September 16, 2005
atc
okay... so the atc was fun... i met all kinds of ppl... gr8 frens in fact... i've grown kind of attached 2 the ppl there... like khai... frm bps... he's kind of gayish but he's very farni... think i'll go now...muakzz
posted @ 1:35 PM
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
hey hey hey...
so wats up? hmm... so borring... but i went back 2 ftpps juz now... saw has, sarah (she looks like a butch!!), huda azzis (moi best fren), huda arslan, suria, hutomo (4eva fat!!), jue ying, msy, bml, jonathan, corrine, si rong, wan zhen etc etc... wow!! n i was like, so darned happy tat i finally caught up wif them... it's bin a whole year!! anywae.... i went out 2 eat wif them... n tawan was there 2... still as popular (among the gals) as ever... haha!! then 4 a moment the guys played cards... xcuse moi? tat's so childish!! then wen they were playing soccer, i played hopscotch wif da gals... talk abt pri skool kids...wat else? miss selva didn't come 2dae n i'm feeling so guilty abt wat our guys did 2 her... wat 2 do?! oh yeah... tat 1 guy in our class is so darned unfashionable!! he wore his pe shirt wif jeans n BLACK LEATHER SHOES!! does he think he's a businessman or sth? i mean, wat da heck? haiss... klah... the main reason y i blogged was bcos huda azzis asked moi 2... so, happy? anywae.. wanna go now... buh baii!!muakzz!
posted @ 4:39 PM
Friday, August 19, 2005
cpl...
hey rite now i'm in the cpl...doing nothin' n talking crap... buh bye!!muakzz!
posted @ 9:45 AM
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
i lost someone
i just lost someone i loved... why must life be so unfair? why must god take him away from me? i don't understand... perhaps life is like that... and what hurt me more was the fact that he kept asking for that one thing which no one was allowed to give to him... it hurts looking at him suffer so much... i was never really close to him but now when we go to his house it struck me just how empty the house seems to be... i miss talking to him... some times even now, months after he has passed away i still cry when i think about him... how i wished i had put in the effort to get closer to him... but it's too late now... everything has ended... for him... but not for me... for me, life has to go on... but i can't take it...posted @ 1:46 PM
Thursday, June 09, 2005
after sleeping...
omg. i slept all the way from 11.30 pm till 3 pm juz now! nearly 16 hours! actually we had npcc but i was juz so darned tired i couldn't wake up! i mean, i was seriously exhausted. i mean, imagine spending 3 daes<8> in skool... very stressful. we finished our claymation thingie quite early lah, so me, zm, adin, mg n nethra surfed the net but then the instructor<> chased us out. said at 3 muz go liao. she's so bloody biased! bcoz terry, desmond, keng rong n the other e3 guys also nvr do anything, then they surfed the net, played soccer inside the lab, n make noise she nvr ask them 2 leave the lab lor... but on tuesday keng rong was playing boulevard of broken dreams damn loudly then at tat time she was telling us wat to do lah. then she got kinda angry n she said thistalked to him!
posted @ 4:03 PM
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
claymation...
hey!! rite now in cpl 3 doing the claymation thingy... wif e3... ( zm, 2 bad ly nvr come hor...) the e3 guys v. bad 1 ... they r so rude!! budden wad do u xpect frm them?! klah, actually they quite funny lah... but they r such hypocrites coz during normal class time they damn quiet 1... then now so darned noisy!! our class r the total opposites!! so noisy in class (main gate down there can here deepak's voice) but v.quiet during this thing lor... but i won't exactly call us hypocrites lah=) coz i luv luv my class 1 lor... the e3 guys have v. v. good taste in music lor... they keep playing i juz wanna live, untitled (edwin playing rite now), hollaback girl, n greenday songs 1 lor... seems like i keep using singlish... hahaha!!*zm, r u crazy? y u visiting the singapore indians website?!* wahlau, the''idiot'' cut his hair 1 lor... yesterdae he was like blowing his hair off his forehead the whole time lor!! look very funny... juz now saw jw's blog... so cute!!yesterdae the e3 guys keep playing their music so loud lor then the instructor say she would throw them out if they keep playing v.loud lah... then 1 of the guys say '' u throw me out hah, i go out first lor!!'' then after tat they went out but even b4 1 minute's over they came back in... very lame 1 lor!!
then rite, i lent 1 e3 grp my account to access the computer so many times alreadi then they nvr say thx even 1 lor!! very rude leh!!
am not talking to you...
posted @ 10:23 AM
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
bloggin'
hey hey hey! rite now i'm in skool=) we're actuali supposed to do this thin' on asknlearn... but nvr mind cos i posted 3 things on 3 topics... jarrod's krazee... he viewed his own post n rite now it's 314 n counting... i dun reali give a damn abt wat i rote... as long as i did sth... i'm in btwin nethra n zimin... juz now during maths the guys requested 2 play p.e. so we all went down n i nvr did anything... v. lazee... juz checked my account... amanda's singing... quite nice lah... nethra so busy lookin' at porn sites... klah, go now...i'm so on the high!!
posted @ 12:04 PM
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
sob...
yesterdae was 1 of the worst daes of my life... yeah i noe it sounds like a cliche, but it does have sum truth in it... my hamster died... n wen it was dying i wasn't home cos i was forced 2 go 2 my grandpa's house... i hate this... n my sis was the onli 1 home at tat time... n she had a phobia of our hammy cos she got bitten lots of times b4... the thing was lifeless ya noe... couldn't breathe properly... n my sis said tat there were lots n lots of ants on him... i wonder how much my hammy was suffering... my hammy was like struggling 2 breathe ya noe... i couldn't stand 2 see him suffer... i ended up crying like 4 2 whole hours... lucky wen i got home he was still alive... i couldn't sleep yesterdae n like 3 am i woke up cos i was crying in my sleep n i saw my other sis crying too... i noe i had a hamster b4 but wen it died i wasn't tat sad sumhow... i was like onli 5 or 6... but if losing a hamster feels like this, juz how bad will it be if i lost a family member? it's gonna hurt, i noe tat much... i can't stand walking into my room n seeing an empty cage cos it reali struck me tat he's dead... i reali can't stand it... this sucks... i never wanna lose you...
posted @ 11:56 AM
Thursday, April 28, 2005
i hate you...
juz now we had english... my fav subject!! but now i seriously think tat i can't score well 4 this... the compre was average, but the summary was totally hellish!! arghhhh!! yesterdae was a very bad dae at home... i got yelled at lots of times 4 not helping out wif the chores...i hate my mum... i hate the way she always talk abt the pain she has 2 go thru 2 give birth 2 me... she knows it'll make me guilty... but the caesarean wasn't my fault... y don't u juz 4get abt tat? u dunno tat everytime u say tat, i felt as though u regretted having me... its tat true? cos it reali seems like u dun give a damn abt me... the onli way i could make u happy is 2 get gd results... i now u want me 2 get 2 uni... if i ever manage 2 get tat far, i'll make sure tat i go 2 1 which is very far away... so tat i'll nvr c u... i hate you...
if only there was someone who could make me happy and forget about all this...
posted @ 1:53 PM
Monday, April 25, 2005
I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!
i hate the biased stupid bitch or wadever her bloody name is. arghhhhhh!!ya wanna noe wat happened? at the lab me, zm n nethra were noisy as usual... then nethra kept begging sy 2 give her sweet... then after tat i asked nethra 2 shut up... i admit i was giggling but tat was bcos nethra was so funny... then she started saying tat me n zm talk a lot, so i shut up 4 the rest lesson... then wen j.lim n sy were doing the exp. i juz sat there alone like a loser cos i was so angry... then she came 2 us then asked me 2 come over 2 them. i wasn't tat rebellious so i juz went... then she started saying tat we r all very shy.... very stupid lor!! ppl nvr talk bcos of her... BITCH! i hate you 4 doing this 2 me...you make me hate you even more for doing this...
posted @ 2:50 PM
Friday, April 22, 2005
hey...
very borring 2dae... juz now skool was a-ok... selva wasn't so bad these few days... juz wanna rite this 4 the hell of it... ya noe i'm crazy=)bye!!muakzz!!
posted @ 8:03 PM